I have been holding out on you guys. I have asthma, I've had it since I was 3 years old. I have been very fortunate to not really have had much of a problem with it since I was about 21 or so, but when I got married and moved up to New England, well.....things changed. They have been some better now that we live in the midwest but...
When I was a kid, I took allergy shots twice a week for years. I finally seemed to beat not being able to breathe. Ha! My parents didn't really understand how dangerous asthma can be, so I would have asthma attacks and I can remember sleeping sitting up. I didn't ever go to the ER. It was just something I dealt with.
I guess that's sort of how I deal with it today. I don't want to bring any undue attention to myself. But sometimes I just can't breathe. My Hubby can't understand it. We live in a 2 story home, and there are times when just going up the stairs wipes me out. Walking around in my yard, looking at all my lovely flowers I planted weeks ago, wipes me out.
The reason I have been so asthmatic lately is due to being exposed to second hand smoke. I didn't even realize it at the time. We were staying in a hotel in a non-smoking room, but the room next to ours was a smoker. I guess there was cross ventilation.
This morning I am feeling the best I have felt in over a week. I can walk to the bathroom and not get short of breath. I'm not telling this to get pity or sympathy from anyone. I just wanted to talk about it. Over the weekend I watched the kids run around and I couldn't even walk to the bathroom. I felt so frustrated. They want me to be energetic and play with them outside and stuff. I usually do. I just couldn't this time.
Hubby wanted me to go on a family outing. He just couldn't understand. I couldn't breathe. I have a nebulizer breathing machine at home, I have all the inhalers and everything. I just have to take it slow and recover from the exposure to smoke. It's not something that gets taken care of in one day. It's a process.
Back at Christmas I had the same problem. Who knew that in Illinois, you need to have a humidifier in your home, because when it's -20 below outside, the air in your home is drier than a desert? I, being from a humid area like South Mississippi, didn't know that. We had to call 911 and have an ambulance come get me.
I know this is a rambling post. I just get discouraged with myself, because I want to be doing so many things, around my house, outside in the beautiful spring weather. You get the picture. I guess, I'm asking that you please pray that my lungs get better. It's so hard for me to ask for prayer for myself.
Thanks so much for listening to me ramble on, my thoughts are scattered this early morning.